sure, the world wide web is great...

Sometimes, well, a lot of the time I wish technology was not quite so advanced.

Just yesterday while I was at work someone called whose voice sounded so familiar, and after hanging up, I couldn't stop my mind from wandering, creating scenarios of reconnecting with someone I hadn't talked to for years all because of a random phone call. Also, recently one of my friends jokingly asked me, "what would you think if you came home from work and I was sitting at your kitchen table having tea with your grandma?" Marvelous! Why DONT people do that? Whatever happened to people just 'stopping by' without a phone call or a planned meeting? Am I crazy, or wouldn't that just be wonderful? People used to do it all the time!

I think that online communities and cell phones have really kind of ruined things. They are the source of so much drama, fakeness and heartache. At the same time, I do realize that technology has it's good sides, after all, who am I to be saying 'down with technology' when I myself have one of the most advanced technological gadgets within earshot 24 hours a day. I suppose, as with everything you must take the good with the bad.

It's just so easy to 'find people' these days, sometimes I wish it was harder. I wish it was harder to seek people out and to be sought after. Not just a simple 'click click click.... befriend.' I caught myself saying the other day “I know people who don't even know I know them!” How can I even say that? I don't know ANYONE based on a simple bit of data that's posted under their name on some stupid web page. Sure, maybe I've figured out their name and favorite books, movies, music, and have seen all of their pictures from birth to present day, but that certainly doesn't mean anything.

Maybe I was born in the wrong century.

Life Post-College

Since graduation life has been a strange mix of emotions along with lots of time to think. This is really a strange time for me. In school, I was the kind of person who planned out every hour of the day in order to fit in school, family, friends and homework all with time for that precious hour of television to watch my newest favorite show of the season. I was a hard worker and I liked feeling like I was a hard worker.

These days there is no schedule, there's no list of things that need to be done, well, at least it's not even long enough to have to write down. I miss my planner with it's million things exploding out of the day's square.

Even though I miss being busy and feeling productive, I'm learning a lot in this period of time that I've been forced to 'take a breath.' I've met some wonderful people and God's teaching me to look to Him and not to my goals or aspirations to find my identity. Graduating college was my goal for as long as I can remember and I never really gave life after college much thought until I arrived here. Let's just say I'm learning to like it. I find comfort in the apparent temporariness of the situation, I know that life will not always be this simple and that I should use this time wisely, not going down dead end roads, but investing in friendships that will last, taking the initiative to continue learning on my own, and continuing to create even when I don't feel like it.