For the first time in a while I am completely disappointed in myself. I don't know why I let silly and stupid excuses get in the way of me putting 100% into something I'm working on. As I listened to myself making excuses for my subpar work, I began to realize that I was using double standards and what an awful realization that was. I've always been one to believe that there truly are no excuses for most things. I've never been sympathetic to people who give excuses: my face may be saying "I understand..." but in my head I'm thinking "really? you couldn't try any harder? What you mean is you didn't WANT to try any harder..." And perhaps that is a bit unforgiving and harsh, but I feel as though it's correct. I guess most of the time I hold myself to these standards, but not all of the time, and when I don't I really feel like crap. This, coupled with a strange night yesterday in which I was completely guilty of not following an impression God strongly put on my heart, is really bringing me down.
Surely things will look up again soon.
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